Memories

Memories

That’s all I have

Memories

That’s all I am

 

I always look back

And remember from the heart

The feelings I still have stored

For all that’s passed

For all that’s been lost

For all who were

For everything that was

A part of me

Memories for everything

Memories of warmth

Memories that hug

Memories that kiss

 

It’s memories you need

Memories of fights

Fights you won

    And the ones you lost

It’s memories I need

Memories to bring back

All that I am

To bring back my urge to fight

To believe in me again and strike

 

Memories to keep

Memories to update

For a life that shouldn’t stop

A life that always goes on

Memories to hold on to

Memories to feel right before the end

Because then

That would be all

That I would have got

Inside of me

Inside of me

 

Could you ever look inside of me and see

Could you ever look and understand?

If I could I would tear the flesh

Look behind my mask and see

The truth

My truth

A truth

 

The Truth of who I really am

The Truth of that which I truly fear

The Truth of not knowing who I am

The Truth of my actions

The actions that have left me be

…me

Truth

 

Have you ever caught yourselves

Staring at your hands?

Gently moving them in circles

And try to look inside

Inside the organ which helps you act.

The organ which allows you to feel

Feel the tenderness of touch

Feel the warmth

The organ which helps you write

The organ which pushes you back up

from the ground…

Up on your feet?

You wonder for the actions you did wrong

For the loneliness those hands have left you

And you look at them close

Too close to understand

Yet you can’t

You always manage to look through them

As a stupid illusion

You look through them

You look at a reality behind them

 

Your face in the mirror

Your expression

Your ways

You

 

It’s sad that not even you can understand

The face that you see

 

Not even you

 

Yet you keep on staring at your hand

Trying to understand

Why this miracle of organ

Has been so mean

Why has it forced you to be

All alone

In your (unique) philosophy of understanding

Once more

In the night

Wondering alone:

” why”

Time will reveal your ugliness pt.2

 

(Direct form of speech follows.)

Try to look with your heart and think with your brain. Ignore what’s pretty and what is vague. What you see is not what’s really there. What’s really worth the 5 second stare will not worth your lifetime’s devotion. Use your brain and try to talk. Raise your head and look for more. You don’t want a vampire laying with you in bed, one that’s going to suck you dry from your flesh.

Time will surely show your ugliness. Time will surely deform you. What you were, who you were, what you used to mean to certain people will fade away. Your beauty, the talents you think you have. Time does not make exceptions. Beauty does not last forever.

What’s in your heart, the way you think can easily be compared with shit. And yet still you hide it well with your mascara and your lips in red. You think people don’t know what’s really inside? The filth inside you does not really stay there. Time will bring it out to show the world who you really were.

And once your beauty is gone. Your speeches and your actions will for the first time match your distorted picture. The meanness of your life will match your face.

Avoid this people.

Live a life that’s worth a child’s admiration.

Where to draw the line…

 

Opinions.

There are there to stay. Every man has the right to his/her opinion and has the right to express it wherever and whenever he/she considers appropriate. Opinions may include anything from why is earth spinning around the sun to why I crashed the ant even though it did nothing wrong to me. Opinions come as answers to a question that cannot have a fixed right answer. And the answers can vary to non fixed answers that only have to make sense for the person answering or expressing his/her view. Whether you like it or not there are bound to be stupid and intelligent opinions, more of the opinions would be stupid because that’s the kind of world we live in, but some will tend to be on the point and have some valid points to argue.

Debates.

Whenever there are opinions there would be debates. People that would debate and sometimes argue about a certain issue are people that do not necessarily share the same opinion and want to persuade the other person or the people around them that their opinion is the right one. Debates are logically end with no winners but people that are watching the debate or the public argument tend to switch sites or understand the issue to a greater depth than what they used to.

Ideally.

What I mean? All these things happen ideally.

There are debates according to some people that are held sacred. Religion debates, racial debates, how to raise your children debates, patriotism debates etc.

These issues are considered by the majority of people as so sacred that they cannot exchange properly views with someone that does not share the same opinion as them. People consider themselves democratic but they would not sit down and discuss with people that don’t share the same views as them about religion, about racial dominance. (NOW I AM NOT SAYING THAT I BELIEVE THAT A RACE IS DOMINANT TO ANOTHER THAT IS ABSOLUTE BULLSHIT BUT I WOULD HAVE NO PROBLEM TO DISCUSS THIS ISSUE WITH A KKK MEMBER)

In my opinion, and in the democratic world (ideally again I would call the world democratic because that’s how ideally it should be) we live in anything is under discussion. What’s always the case for a Christian is not the case for a Muslim what’s might be right for a white person might not be the case for a black person. Why? Due to the differences we share on our upbringings the differences in our genes and the different possibly education we may receive from different country states. Now for such polymorphism to manage to exist in the world there must be some sort of understanding. A mutual understanding and respect about the differences of each culture. True I will not argue with that, but through that understanding there should be respect for the other person’s opinion. As such any issue may be questioned and any issue is under debate respecting the fact that the other person may share a different view.

A debate is never out of the question with anyone and no-one. I will never understand why some people will refuse to sit down and talk with anyone that wants to talk to them. A debate happens and shows the world that every view is respected and accepted and that the world is a democratic one. A debate that excludes religion potentially divides religions even more. Muslims will tend to hate Christian’s even more and their differences will grow and grow. By evaluating certain people and certain issues as non-debatable you urge people to disrespect differences in opinions and to further teach their children that their beliefs are good the opposite beliefs are bad.

I will say it again. NOTHING is just right and NOTHING is just wrong. In the world we live in with the different upbringings everything is right and everything is wrong. Open discussions should be available about religion, about having or not having religion, debates about specific religions themselves, equality about NOT equality. That way people share their views. People will learn to accept different things, and to accept their differences which instead of separating them will unite them. Most of the governments do not allow this kind of public talk because it may bring trouble. Trouble is brought to them because they originally thought that it would bring trouble to them, and they followed a policy of “censorship” really, because that’s what it is, of public speech.

To finish this, I will say that there is no line to draw. People will have different sets of beliefs and I will have my different set. People will tend to accept certain people and reject others. Everything’s a fact but you will never manage to make a multicultural, an open and accepting world for anyone if you think there is a line to draw about sacred issues.

There’s only one line to draw, respect for human life as it is sacred, and that line is continually violated by all those people that draw all the other lines.

All those people that believe so much but do so little.

-pnx

Time will reveal your ugliness…

Time will reveal your ugliness.

I am going to start this blog post by an extract from the lyrics of ‘Red Hot Chilly Peppers – Californication’ which goes like this: “Pay your surgeon very well to break the spell of aging”. ‘The spell of aging’ the natural process by which every living body slowly but periodically gets deformed from its original shape to slowly and methodically die. Time will thereby stop at nothing, not in what you used to look like, not in who you used to be and certainly not by wishing it do just so.

Time is a good conscious raiser, as it takes whatever you used to be and just throws it into the dustbin. Everyone will remember who he used to be and who he turned out to be. Everyone will therefore have a memory from the past of how he/she could have turned out to be. Time is the best teacher although it kills all his students. (I read this somewhere, can’t really remember where but anyway it’s so right).

There are philosophies and philosophies, ways of thinking and even more ways of thinking on how to face the coming of time. One would be do everything and try everything at least once. Another is learn and try to understand as much as you can in a constant search for your place. Another is just a laid back get life as it comes to you and try to live it as best as you can. Others take the religious path in life which I will not get into because it’s just the wrong path. The only fact is that at the end of the day you will never be happy with whatever philosophy you’ve chosen to lead your life as they all seem incomplete and ignorant to parts of life they have not invested time to live. So choose wisely in whatever you will miss the least not living.

Anyway the last paragraph was beside the point. Time will literally rot us to the bone and bring us to our knees when we feel the strongest. (Strongest being the wisest phase of our life) Anyway what I am trying to say here is since all that is beautiful comes between the ages of 16-36 let’s say because after that the downfall starts to come, try not to base your life in what you look at in the mirror. Quite sad really but when you are 24 you won’t be the same when you were 18 and the same will apply as you continually climb up the ladder of time. It will come to a point where you will not recognise the face in the mirror, a time where you will remember of past times and cry.

One wrong in my point of view way to look at things is by the eye. Nothing is what it looks like, but even worse nothing will remain the way it looks like. Scars of time will be evident everywhere. I’ll write this down to possibly try and understand it and maybe live by this rule rather than by the rule that orders me to live by what I look like and what my eyes tell me that is attractive.

I like art. I enjoy watching art and even try to express myself in a written form of art but the difference between people and art is that once art is out from you and on to a piece of paper or in a database it’s forever lasting, it’s immortal. People are not. We better start acting like we know this and start looking for the art in actions and not in words or images.

Dedicated in an effort to better myself.

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